Haven't been blogging consistently for a bit. Its a matter of having too many thoughts in your brain that you kinda just wanna pen it to relieve yourself.
Rounding up my work now.. Its evoking some fears, doubts and mindless rambles. Is this good enough, damn what results to show, crap even i don't understand what i'm doing sometimes how to convince others of this crap. But beneath it all, i'm thankful to labmates around me. Their presence soothes me. Not like everyone is in the same boat or what, but i just like seeing them around. Seeing them push in their work, that we can all hang out and go for lunch and dinner together, that i can just turn my chair around and talk cock to them... simple things like that. Last night i stayed back late in office with YY and Yan Hua. We had dinner and travelled home together. Even though it was just a simple time, i really enjoyed and treasured their presence. And i found myself already missing these times, when YH will be starting work really soon, another allie leaving... And i also enjoy when we all go jogging in campus, MK, YY, YH , XF. Other lab buddies, May, Riko, LK, Der, MY too.. We always seem to have crappy things to say and complain about. Simple times.. but greatly treasured..
Had dinner with the boys just now. Was raining again and damn cannot play tennis again. I super hate the monsoon season because of this. Wanted to try out the new grip ah ber was gonna teach me, the continental grip was hurting my wrist quite a bit last wk when i exerted it. But it'll hold off to next week. Enjoyed the company, as always its honest and candid. They always have something to say about me, but i know their right and they know me for what i am, and them saying it seems almost like i'm externalizing my own thoughts trapped inside of me; plainly accurate. I think the dynamics of this friendship is special and again, i'm blessed with friends like the boys and my special dear sister XF! whose away in the USofA but my prayers are with her, that God will keep her safe and bless her with a fulfilling trip. Again, simple times.. and greatly treasured..
Am i a worrier? Or am I just being a woman? There are these things that haunt me.. But I ask the Lord to release me as i learn to release my fears to Him. I learnt from several friends; most recent of which from daryl; that we have to be first responsible for ourselves and to ourselves, before we can than bless others or the ones we love..
Peace. That which is most precious i realize now.
Had dinner with the boys just now. Was raining again and damn cannot play tennis again. I super hate the monsoon season because of this. Wanted to try out the new grip ah ber was gonna teach me, the continental grip was hurting my wrist quite a bit last wk when i exerted it. But it'll hold off to next week. Enjoyed the company, as always its honest and candid. They always have something to say about me, but i know their right and they know me for what i am, and them saying it seems almost like i'm externalizing my own thoughts trapped inside of me; plainly accurate. I think the dynamics of this friendship is special and again, i'm blessed with friends like the boys and my special dear sister XF! whose away in the USofA but my prayers are with her, that God will keep her safe and bless her with a fulfilling trip. Again, simple times.. and greatly treasured..
Am i a worrier? Or am I just being a woman? There are these things that haunt me.. But I ask the Lord to release me as i learn to release my fears to Him. I learnt from several friends; most recent of which from daryl; that we have to be first responsible for ourselves and to ourselves, before we can than bless others or the ones we love..
Peace. That which is most precious i realize now.
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