Lovefool

"Just tell him you love him.. Tell him you've loved him for 9 years, but you've been afraid to love, afraid of needing.
-Needing what?
Belonging to someone.."

from My Best Friend's Wedding

I'm afraid to need him because i might need him more than he needs me.

But it shouldn't matter,

because i love him.

Another excuse to skive off work, work on a list!

Tagged by Brid eons ago, ah well..

Tag 3 people to do the meme when completed.
1. My ex is: "Thank God that's over."
2. I am listening to: Brian Mcknight's Back at One
3. Maybe I should: get cracking at actual work instead of doing this quiz?
4. I love: Jogging alone in the light rain
5. My best friends: aww... u guys know its u
6. I don’t understand: why Singaporeans don't understand the concept of letting people exit the MRT first instead of crowdig and bustling in; even when the yellow lines are drawn up for them.
7. I lose: sleep when i worry excessively
8. People say: If the going gets tough, the tough gets going. hmm... worth a thought.
9. The meaning of my screen name is: as it is, I am very much a princess. The bf acknowledges that.
10. Love is: More than i can say
11. Somewhere, someone: is thinking of me as much as i think of him (i hope :p)
12. I will always: be a hopeless romantic and cry watching sappy romance comedies
13. Forever: the secret of life will never be fully known to man
14. I never want to: lose myself in meaningless pursuits
15. My cell phone is: Spanking new! wooyah!
16. When I wake in the morning: I snooze and laze in bed for at least another hr (pig)
17. I get annoyed at: people who make fun of things that actually means something to another person
18. Parties are: starting to sound lame and parsay when u get older
19. My dog is: Trevor, mid-size golden retriever living in my head. I'll let him out for a run tonight.
21. Today I am: tired and zonked out.
22. Tonight I will: watch America's next TOP model (it brings out the bimbo in me)
23. Tomorrow I will: Spend alone time with the special someone.
24. I really want: to always be H-A-P-P-Y!
25. When I looked at myself in the mirror today I: admited to myself i wasn't looking my best, but don't in the least give a crap.
26. I will drive my car: @200km/hr and pretend i'm Alonso
27. A word that rhymes with “PARK” is: Bark *rworff* (wat'd u say Trev?)
28. Bright or Dark Room?: Bright, i imagine things in the dark.
29. If I’m alone in a room with two beds, I: will jump from bed to bed pretending they're trampolines
30. The last thing I said to someone was: "We tried our best"

Now I tag whoever's reading this list :)

Surprise

To the man in my life,

Thank you...

I Love the sweet Surprise darling, they smell wonderful.
I love it even more, for the effort made :)

Ally likes them too! *muacks*

I thank God everyday for you...

IT Malfunction

Subject: UPGRADE FROM BOYFRIEND TO HUSBAND
Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0. In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0. And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?

Signed,Desperate Housewife

Re: UPGRADE FROM BOYFRIEND TO HUSBAND
Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind: Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system. Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and downloadTears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0. If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5. But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1. Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall anotherBoyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crashHusband 1.0. In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limitedmemory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.
Good Luck, IT Support

There's more to life than this

There's more to life than this.
I found it and along the way, i seem to have lost it.
The passion and desire for fullness and contentment, the longing to bring hope to others.
The need to be intimate with you, the confidence in the future and embracing the present.
I cannot verbalise the struggle to anyone, i don't have the words. It reaches the tip of my tongue and gets swallowed once more.
Only when I am alone with my thoughts, i find you there. You have always been there. And you already know it all.
Deal with my fears O Lord, deal with my inadequecies.
Grant me courage and mercy to stay in your presence, don't let me out of your sight.
I don't want to just settle, when I know you have the best for me.
So help me, to give my best, to you...

Have you ever

Have you ever felt like the world around you is so different and there's a whole other world inside of you?

Have you ever been in love and yet feel unsure of where the ride is taking you?

Have you ever talked, walked and laughed, but it all doesn't seem to add up?

Have you ever wished it would rain just for you, to take a long walk and clear your head?

Have you ever wondered if it would ever end up like you dreamt it, when you were once hopeful?

I want the dreams i dreamt, i want the passion of life, i need the power with the form, God i want you.

My O my list of favorite things

My Favorite word:
Gou Li (powerful)
*Often used by Malaysians to describe anything, anywhere.

My Favorite person:

*Chris Leonidas Lim, born of Sparta, occupation: destroyer of Persians

My Favorite thing in my room:

* B&Ws are so timeless

My Favorite work:

*My baby. Total cost over 50 grand. If God willing, it will split water.

My Favorite Sport:

*I Heart Tennis! Federer @Wimbledon 2005

My Favorite Flower:


*The Calla Lily

My Favorite series:

*FRIENDS, it should never have ended.

My Favorite movie:



*Say a little prayer for u...


My Favorite dream destination:

*EUROPE, Paris... sweep me off my feet.

'I like not only to be loved, but to be told I am loved.'

Dim Sum Dollies ! Hyuk hyuk hyuk

Parking Pontianak from The Revenge of the Dim Sum Dollies

Parking Pontianak MTV

My research in a nutshell




Absolutely the most precious little thing I've ever seen and heard...

What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen each other in all labour, to minister to each other in all sorrow, to share with each other in all gladness, to be one with each other in the silent unspoken memories?
-- George Eliot
Right George, albeit the magnitude of greatness reflects the preceding level of difficulty that which lies in that it takes two.

I heart Tennis!

Had a fantastic game of tennis with Fang and Pierrick in the evening! The last time i played was late last year and I didn't enjoy that game at all. This time I got my rackets restringed and regripped, got smacking new balls, got Mr Yeoh to book the courts for moi (thanks KEN!) and we were off to a good start. We laughed and played the fool amidst the wonderful "POP"s of powderful swings, cheering Mr Federer as he took on our wild shots. I had forgotten how much i really loved the game. How much i missed the serves, the running, the pops. My back hand still sucks, but what the heck. We made a pact, to play weekly, so yay! Finally found tennis buds! I heart tennis!
While we were waiting for 199 at the NIE bus stop (beside the courts), we were invaded by swarms of mosquitos. It was disgusting! everyone at the bus stop were moving and swatting themselves, i could SEE the mosquitos flying around in the dark. Me and Fang ended up standing in the middle of the road to stay clear of the evil bloodsuckers. To all you NIE peeps out there, beware... Its a filthy breeding place.
We proceeded to dinner with LK and YY at Sakae. Hungry researchers = many coloured plates = super bloated and satisfyingly full. As usual we cannot get away from any discussion without gossiping about bosses, complaining about how menial and unimportant our research is, or how we will never be like MIT or CAMBRIDGE grads. Nobel prizes and awards are outta our reach. But i know deep down, we take pride in our work. The best thing in doing this, for me at least, is the company of fantastic lab mates who are humble, understanding, and truely enjoy the pursuit of knowledge. We've seen each other through many areas of our lives and in our work, encouraging one another. I couldn't ask for a more favorable working and learning enviroment, or better collegues. So.. I heart Labmates!
Aching legs and arms, off to a good nights rest, tonight, I dream of Wimbleton with Andy Roddick and Roger Federer. sigh*heart heart heart*


If I could have one thing now, at this very moment, what would it be?


...........


I forgot what it was like.. to want.

Make-me-over!








hahahahahaa......

"Mr. Madison, what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul."
- The Principal in Billy Madison after Adam Sandler delivers a nonsensical but otherwise moving speech about the lost puppy.

"Everything in this room is eatable. Yes, i am eatable but that, children is called cannibelism and is frowned upon in most societies."
-Willy Wonka in Charlie and the Choc. Factory

"You don't even know how to read!-It's the Bible. You get credit for trying."
- Pirates of the Caribbean, Dead Man's Chest

Best Friends' Wedding!

The day began as early as 530am on 5th May! Most of us hardly got any sleep at all but we still managed to look our best i'm sure hehe. Ready, set, go!

Behind the scenes: Bridesmaids getting ready
Evil Bridesmaids' concoction

Groom and His entourage posing
Can't wait!

Valiant brothers step up to the task of gate crashing!
Push ups + Disgusting Drink (some of them had tummy aches hehe)

Yummy! wasabi cookies!
Oui! Ang Pow so stingy!

Finally got to my lovely bride!!!
::Zhen Qing::
Setting off to the church
Precious moments! Aww...

Tertiary Ministry acting cute
Gloria's toast and friendly speech :p
Groom serenading Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin
Won the Judges over!
Me and Dear stealing some shots :)
Jie Mei Power!!

Whew..... Finally over!!

Wah... took me like forever to upload the pics la! But I can be sure that all of us enjoyed our best friends' special day, may the memories go on :) Achm, Mr and Mrs Lai, i'll expect the same helpfulness in the future hor!

Local Postgraduate discovers answer to the World's Energy Crisis




Princess Checklist



In this day and age, can a girl still dream? Here's why i want to be a princess:




1. So i get my own castle, with the super high tower overlooking the sights and i can hang my hair outta the window to dry after washing it. A giant four poster bed with gezillion layers of mattresses and i'll still complain its lumpy; yes cos there's a pea stuck in the middle somewhere.




2.I get my own horse, of cos in this age i'll perhaps be willing to trade it for a PORSCHE BOXSTER.




3. I can sit around all day and just look pretty. Who doesn't want to?? No such thing as bad hair day, horrigible complexion or run outta clothes to wear in princess world.




4. I finally get to have my own dog, probably can have a zoo in the backyard if i wanted to, just for kicks. (Hey, michael jackson had one and he ain't no princess lor..)




5. The princess package comes with a Prince Charming, freebies also include his white horse (Ferraris are interchangable and available while stocks last), his own BIGGER castle (I'll settle for a mansion in district 10) in his very own Kingdom (I'm not that greedy, will be willing to do away with this bit).




6. The gigantic magical wedding! Finally the outdoor garden fiasco comes to live at sun dusk with the sound of violins serenading Canon in D, white lilies,red carpet walkway, flower cathedral and fireworks. Obviously wearing Vera Wang and no less. Surely no need wet weather back up plans cos whatever princesses want, princesses get.




7. And last but not least, the happily ever after bit.




Happily ever after... who will make this princess's dreams come true!!!




Ahh.. My alter ego at work again.




Tonight i dream..

Its been a series of happenings and lots to do. Such that for the last 2 nights, i was really really so so tired. Physically and mentally.. Not complaining that much, cos 2 of my good friends (Leo and Yufeng congrats!) just got married, it was such a joy helping them in the whole event, and witnessing the union of their love. It reminds me of what is real, the wedding itself takes SUPER alot of planning. It doesn't help if u want a uber fantasy wedding and every single detail right down to the colour of flowers and theme has to go down meticulously as planned. But perhaps what is more real is the love that 2 people share, it has to sustain one another through so so much. I realize that if I didn't have the love of God in my life i would be incapable of loving another unconditionally. Now i can't say that I can completely, but I ask God for His grace to sustain and fill me whenever i lack. In whatever I cannot control, Father you are in control.
Have been having weird dreams 2 nights in a row (Getting caught in crazy love triangles and chased by a mad man with a rotting ear! i wake up having to do reality checks which is quite scary, pui...), daph says i'm too stressed and tired. That is true. I've been telling her to take time out for herself, make time for stillness. But i haven't been able to do so myself for the past couple of weeks. Every thing i can remember doing is for people and or the sake of getting things done. Tonight i have decided to do something for myself. I want to dream a dream for me. Here's how it'll go:
I'll be lying by the beach, the sand is soft and it doesn't stick in the middle of my toes cos I hate that. The sun's going down and there's a lovely glow in the sky. The waves are whispering gently and i hear Lobo's "I'd love you to want me" playing softly. i'm perfectly still and alone and i'll fall right back to sleep with a smile on my face. .
That'll be my dream for tonight and i'll wake up smelling like the beach. My grumpiness will disappear with the waves and i can look forward to the weekend ahead.
Sometimes i want a little bit more, i'd love you to want me...